God’s Plan

I'm always fascinated by how many people feel empowered to proclaim what God wants and know what God intends FOR EVERYONE . It's almost ridiculous to me when people confuse their love and need to be rooted in God as a instant channel to being God's mouthpiece. As if their belief in God means instant validation for every word and thought they have within themselves, as if their limited human capacity can claim God's infinite universe of presence. If we think God as the "almighty" how can we ever assume we are the absolute last word based on God's infinite wisdom. How can "I" and I start with myself , say you are wrong and against god because I believe in x and you believe in y. What gives me this supreme authority?

I had a conversation in the not to distant past with someone I have know for a very long time and came to tussle with his rooted fervency in his own Christianity and beliefs of what God is and wants FOR ALL! He actually believes that he can speak for God. For him anyone who is not a fervent Christian believer is going to hell, going to the actual fire burning cast out hell. So people like Ghandi or my mother of moslem faith upon her death or all the Jews that were killed during holocaust are going to hell. He has deemed it truth. And that homosexually is a sin and they too are going to hell no matter their Christian beliefs.

When I challenged him to ask him :

1. Are we not all god's children? If your god is the ultimate force and had created everything has your God not created the Jews and Moslems and gays ?

2. Are you not a mere human ? Are you proclaiming to be as powerful as God to feel you can speak for God? Is that not an extremely arrogant stance to have in life ? Is not the entire foundation of God to be humble and all loving to ALL fellow beings? Is not proclaiming your "chosen" self in understanding absolute God and others "not" a sin of ego, arrogance and Unlove which goes against essence of god? Is God not all loving and all knowing so how can God be disappointed in any thing if he knows everything?

3. If you believe you know what God's plan is then can not someone of another "religion" claim the same ? What sets you apart from them ? Where is you golden ticket from God? Where is your proof ?

4. Ohhhhh , yes , it's faith based . Right . YOUR FAITH! Are you not limited by the expanse of your understanding and intelligence? Are you also claiming to be the most knowing being and most intelligent? Are you then claiming to be GOD? Is faith not rooted in the expanse of your life's experience? Is YOUR faith not a reflection of YOU?

5. He also refuted others in any organized "religion" as in prayer groups or churches or any religious communities and only engages in Bible study by himself in his own room on Sundays I believe . To me it seems he choses not let the faith or knowledge or chance of his own derailment in a group setting because for me if his beliefs are superior why wouldn't he chose to spread the word? He used corruption in the church to justify all religious studied leaders or scholars as having any validity. He clean swept any chance of derailing his rooted faith ? So I asked him "how can you grow as a being if you do not allow others in to challenge it or support you? , can you not agree of your own limited human capacity? , just as mine is a limited capacity in this moment because we hope to always grow, learn and expand our life and mind? Isn't that the trajectory of life that can not be stopped ? Every moment we move forward we spontaneously gain more experience to process and add to our life beliefs and faith , do we agree on this ?

What I realized was happening in my friend and had happened in many many people in my life having been raised by many "blind faith" moslems of who know none of the Koran teachings but used their own capacity of intelligence , mere association and in many cases limited life experience with others to proclaim their superiority. And isn't that what is really going on , a claim to superiority, a claim to God who is universally accepted as "the most superior entity of all the universe ?" Validation of self in image of the most revered entity of life, by most , God.

I'll go a step further to use God as representative of the entire Universe to those who don't subscribe to diety worship and this analogy and make it all the supreme ruler of life. That's what we are all talking about isn't it? isn't it circling back to who are we ? Why are we here ? And what does all this mean ? Wait! It's God's Plan we are talking about ; Finding purpose. Finding acceptance. Finding love all which all circles back to God.

Who is god?

"I am who am" was one of my first teachings when I attended a Jesuit University. Yahweh was the lesson. And the arguments continue with this verse and teaching dissected by so many in every way. But it gets us thinking - thinking against and with each other . Not locked alone in a room where it is the easiest in some ways to derive your own undisputed interpretation. From my life experience in this moment at age 18 , as a freshman and first generation American raised by moslem faith worshippers I took "i am who am" as we are all divine, we all come from the divine. Why did this come to me this way ? I had no religious instruction growing up, none , ZERO. My religion instruction consisted of seeing people fast one month out of the year and proclaim holiness , individuals that were very nasty and hateful in the way they moved in my world all the rest of the year. Yet this one month gave them a reset perhaps much like confession for Catholics. There in lies my judgement of their religion , proclaimation of my own "holiness". Am I now aligning myself with the ultimate judgement of God? They were not God's plan to me, this cycle of lies. Am I not as bad as my friend in his room proclaiming a direct "red" phone line to Jesus?

God's plan. That's where we started. I do not know God's plan for everyone collectively or for me individually. What I know is all I know in this moment , that my soul tells me to be the kindest most compassionate being I can be , that in that compassion yields love and acceptance which fosters an environment for myself then others to grow and heal and learn. It levels us in a field of support and shouldering to fulfill every moment with the most optimal experiences . Whether those experiences are quiet and reflective or catapultic in nature.

A good friend and mentor send me this text this morning :

Don’t ever compare yourself to anybody else. We are all on this journey learning at different stages and in different ways. The most important thing is to just love yourself exactly how you are.

And she added :

Finally agreeing to work with God’s Plan 🌈

For her God's Plan is just that , helping create an opportunity for others to love, believe and have compassion for themselves first because that's the only way to maintain faith, Faith in ourselves first and then hope it will spread outward to those able to receive, yearning to receive.

Why does toxicity spread more quickly than love and faith I've often wondered. I want to be rooted in a belief that it is our nature to be good and loving so toxicity spreads so quickly because it is foreign to our core values and aa an agent of darkness we don't understand and takes as our energy to battle it, it unbalances us, tests us and ultimately strengthens us. Doesn't it unite us as well? Unite all of us to collectively point it out and say "no". Toxicity a drug poured into our presence and we don't know how to react to initially , it takes over our being and time to eradicate once we understand we've always had the medicine; love, kindness and compassion, that cocktail will cure everything. I challenge anyone living in this most pure state of gratitude of these elements to proclaim otherwise for themselves. It's impossible to live in this state and be anything other than a being in an active state of abundance.

How do I know? I've lived there recently and it was beautiful. Why am I not living there now ? Because new habits created have set backs I've accepted and reflection in how to maintain this abundance has been difficult as I am journeying through my own trauma triggers unburdening my soul with what has been handed and carried by me this lifetime and perhaps many before. Is it God's plan for me to see this ?

These two friends have had massive struggles with God's plan for themselves throughout their lives. It's made them turn on themselves and now procured an opportunity to see the world in a certain way , to express this life's experience in a certain way. One of them is all inclusive having room for everyone to believe or not believe. The other has cast out every single being that doesn't align with them. Living in judgement and isolation amongst infidels. This is the reality of life. All of the dynamics of God's plan I suppose as I sit here reflecting on myself in their journey. Interwoven-faith, for me we all coexist in God's plan to journey , encourage, support , love and grow. Infinite possibilities of growth. Limiting beliefs, judgement and non-tolerance being the death of growth harvesting only security in victim state of life , in the survival state that can not endure turbulence of infinite possibilities.

God's plan ? Isn't it all if this ? When we can recognize ourselves as the center of our world orbiting continuously around others who are the center of their world allowing space for everyone's validity in co-existing then we collectively participate in perhaps what may be God's plan, accepting all purpose that contributes to love and harmony; unarguably the most abundant state of being 🙏